Sad Sad Day

(This is what the ornament looked like except it was green and had my kids picture on it!)


I had a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day last Saturday. Parker was really being a little stinker last week and Saturday was the last straw. Early in the week he had written on my dresser with a pen, leaving deep engravings in it. I was pretty upset about this because this is my last piece of nice furniture that Matt and I have. The kids have ruined all the rest, so I was mad at him for doing that, but I was able to look past it because after all it is just a piece of furniture. We had the talk of choosing the right and how it makes you feel and also how to know if something is wrong and the feeling you get right before you make a choice. I don't think he understood any of that conversation!! Then on Saturday morning the worst thing (remember I am pregnant and very emotional) for a mother that can happen. Let's rewind a few years back to 2008 at Christmas time when as a gift from Parker (and a little help from grandma Yancey) he gave us an ornament with a recording of him saying "I love you daddy, I love you Mommy, Merry Christmas, Love Popper" (how he said his name at the time) It was one of the best gifts I have received, I even cried when I listened to it. It was precious and invaluable. We have enjoyed putting it on the tree each year and listening to it on and off throughout the holiday. Well back to the present, we of course put the ornament on the tree this year and Parker has loved hearing his sweet little voice on it. I have told him not to play with it and that if he wanted to listen to it that I needed to help him. On the bottom there is a button for "off", "Play," and "record" and I didn't want him to hit the record button and erase the message so I told him over and over again not to touch the ornament. Well on Saturday guess what he did!! He was trying to listen to it and I grabbed it from his hands only it was too late! I pushed the play button and heard NOTHING. NOT A SOUND!!! He had erased the sweet little message from when he was 3 years old!! Immediately I burst into tears, sobs really, and was hysterical. I ran over to my parents house to cry on my mom's shoulder. I was so hysterical that she thought something had happened to the baby. I am overly emotional right now, and that just was my breaking point. I cried and cried for over an hour and couldn't even look at Parker after that because I would start crying. I couldn't talk about it to tell Matt what had happened and it pretty much ruined the rest of my day. I know, it is a stupid thing to get so worked up about, but it was so priceless, and now it is gone. I am really sad about it and still a little upset, but I don't think he really realizes what he did and how much that meant to me. So I had to write about the incident so I can remember just how much that ornament meant to me and maybe I will still be able to hear that sweet, little, innocent voice in the years to come. Kids!!! Good thing I love him!